I founded the Carnival of MS Bloggers in 2007 to connect the growing MS Blogging Community. My vision was to become the central hub where bloggers could find each other and to feature a collection of independent patient voices.

As larger MS organizations have also begun to feature patient voices on their own websites in recent years, the Carnival of MS Bloggers is no longer the single driving force in serving this wonderful community. For that we should all be grateful.

Thank you for continuing to support me in this one-person labor of love over the years. As of now, I will be taking a break from hosting the Carnival of MS Bloggers.

Please feel free to continue to email me to alert me to new MS blogs to add to the comprehensive MS Blogging Community index.

Sincerely,
Lisa Emrich

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Thursday, May 2, 2013

Carnival of MS Bloggers #140

Welcome to the Carnival of MS Bloggers, a bi-weekly compendium of thoughts and experiences shared by those living with multiple sclerosis.

from Robert at The Gifts of MS

Well, "relapsing/remitting" is one thing, but "fluttering" is another.

There's This Day, just a day like any other, except... my air-quotes "walking" is better. I use the self-propelled wheelchair briefly as a walker (hint to others who might want to try this with their wheelchairs: be sure to lock the wheels. Then, it's just an oddly-shaped walker. With the locks off, it's a face-planter) and things work... not so bad! Not bad at all! I think, is my "walking" getting... better?

Cut to This Other Day, just a day like any other except... my air-quotes "walking" is worse. BANG, it's worse. No creeping-slow-gradual-is-this-maybe-better improvement, it's BANG worse. Fortunately, that's a metaphorical bang, although I've felt that almost any second I was going to hit the ground, it hasn't happened yet. "Yet" is precisely what I'm hoping won't happen, but you never know...

And these changes are day-to-day. Last night was bad, this morning isn't quite as bad, but it's also not quite as good as it has been, sometimes. And this isn't what I think is a relapse/remit pattern, and I'm only guessing because that's never been my experience of The Disease, it's not a multi-day or multi-week vastly better/vastly worse vacillation... It's "Dang, today's better!" followed by "Dang, today's worse!" No rhyme or reason, no "Gee, I did [x] and things worsened, I did [y] and things improved," no visible pattern of causation. Just ... fluttering.

Well, that's life. Some days better, some days worse. Us M.S.ers, we just notice it more than we used to; we think it's happening to us because of The Disease, but it's really just the noticing that's due to The Disease. "Noticing" more clearly is also a side effect of meditation, especially zazen meditation, which is a hard path but one that I'd recommend more enthusiastically than The Disease. Involves fewer M.R.I.s, for one thing.

And a cute pice of synchronicity: A friend of mine sent me a news clip, there's a study going on at the Mayo clinic involving just aspirin! Three groups, one gets placebo, one gets "baby aspirin" dosage, one gets the equivalent of four tablets a day. Well, I don't qualify (I don't have the right "kind" of M.S., I can't do a couple of other things they want someone to be able to do), but I seem already to be on the "some aspirin a day" path, thank you very much musculo-skeletal headaches, and thank you very much Excedrine for putting my favorite brand back on the market because those (for me) have always been better than pretty much anything else I've tried.

So, I'm not being "studied" (as such, at least by the Mayo Clinic), but I'm workin' the same study, kind of, by being between the "high" and "baby aspirin" dosages.

Doesn't really mean anything, statistically speaking, but it does cure my headaches. And really, what part of "makes me feel better" is a bad idea? Well, presuming it causes no "stealth" harm... feeling better is a good idea. Isn't it?

Well, I think so. Besides, thanks to sensitivity gifted us by The Disease, I'm sure I could tell whether I had an active or placebo dosage, which eats into the "blind" part of "double blind" studies. Which means I wouldn't help them, they wouldn't help me. So, I'm staying home and taking my aspirin and wacko Chinese herbs.

And for all of us who navigate the waters of The Disease... how often do we get to say "That's fine by me" and smile?

Well then, let's do it:
That's fine by me!

This concludes the 140th edition of the Carnival.  The next Carnival of MS Bloggers will be hosted here on May 16, 2013. Please remember to submit a post (via email) from your blog of which you are particularly proud, or which you simply want to share, by noon on Tuesday, May 14, 2013.

Friday, August 17, 2012

Carnival of MS Bloggers #121

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Good Friends: In Sickness and Health

Sunday, I had the pleasure of meeting with two MS blogger friends in Denver for breakfast.  Pictured below are Sherry from Word Salads, myself (Lisa) from Brass and Ivory, and Nadja from Living! With MS

Sherry, Lisa, and Nadja.  Breakfast in Denver.  August 2012.
Since beginning Brass and Ivory five years ago in August 2007 and the Carnival of MS Bloggers in January 2008, I have had the distinct privilege of meeting some absolutely wonderful people living with MS. 

Joan, Lisa, and Jen.  Lunch in Delaware.  April 2010.
Diane, Webster, Rob, Lisa, Jen, Gretchen, Jen's Mom.  Coffee in Seattle.  June 2010.
Lisa and Cathy.  MS Cruise to Alaska.  June 2010.
Jen and Lisa.  Weekend in New Jersey.  October 2010.
Lisa Emrich
Lisa speaking at ePatient Connections Conference.  Philadelphia.  September 2010.
Patient Leader Panel at BlogWorld Expo.  Las Vegas.  October 2010.
2010 was a big year for meeting bloggers and speaking at conferences.  Unfortunately, I didn't get pictures of some of the meetings with MSers I attended in 2011.

Lisa, Jen, Cathy, Daria.  Lunch in New Jersey.  August 2011.
Kelly (RA Warrior), Lisa, ePatient Dave.  Philadelphia.  September 2011.
2012 has been very busy - from blogging at the NMSS Public Policy Conference to traveling to Zurich to represent international MS patients. 
Lee and Lisa.  National MS Society Public Policy Conference, Washington, D.C.  March 2012.
International MS Patient Summit: Living and Working with MS.  Zurich, Switzerland.  May 2012.
Jennifer, Lisa, and Ann.  The Walking Gallery.  Washington, D.C.  June 2012.
Michael and Lisa.  Coffee in Washington, D.C.  June 2012.
Thank you so much for opening your homes and hearts throughout the past five years.  I am so grateful to be a part of this MS community and to have so many wonderful MS friends.  I wonder what will be in store for 2013.


This concludes the 121st edition of the Carnival.  The next Carnival of MS Bloggers will be hosted here on August 30, 2012. Please remember to submit a post (via email) from your blog of which you are particularly proud, or which you simply want to share, by noon on Tuesday, August 28, 2012.

Thank you.

Thursday, July 19, 2012

Carnival of MS Bloggers #119

Welcome to the Carnival of MS Bloggers, a bi-weekly compendium of thoughts and experiences shared by those living with multiple sclerosis.

MS Poetry and Public Profiles

by Janie at PasstheMSplease

I really miss my left leg
It’s been so good to me
It seems that it has run its course
It’s dead as it can be.

I know I ask a lot of it
Through each and every day
I thought that I was good to it
I don’t know what else to say.

I know I bumped it into chairs
The walls, the desks, the drawers
But lately we have done just fine
And stayed off the cold, hard floors.

Maybe I have asked too much
To try and walk like others
But I have not one single time
Been jealous of another’s.

I love you, I can tell you now
‘Though you seem not to care
Although this love is with the left
A love I have to share.

I hope that your vacation time
Will be short and you’ll return
Please don’t stay long, and hurry back
For your presence I still yearn.

And so until that happy day
I’ll hobble on one leg
Please hurry home, I miss you so
I really HATE to beg!!!!

by Stax at Multiple Sclerosis & Me

i hadda preface this post by giving a little history.  I guess that most people are somewhat curious, so alot of times, i'll be out and about and someone will ask me what happened or what's wrong.  Other times, the question is "did u have foot surgery, or did you hurt your leg?"  When i'm asked those type of questions, my standard answer is, "I wish i had surgery (or was injured) because that would mean that i'll heal...no, i have Multiple Sclerosis," and the conversation will either stop there (sometimes, i can tell that the person is a little embarrassed (maybe because they wished they weren't so fas - not that it bothers me?) or go on.

so...Saturday was a boatride on Lake Lanier.  We are in the middle of a heatwave - the high was 106 degrees, so even though i was feeling somewhat alright (sitting in AC in the car), my body was not.  J carried me to the boat - as the people in the south say, "Bless his heart" because it wasn't a short walk (he actually split the distance in 2 and took a lil rest in between) and then even when we got on the boat, KI took me up the stairs - i'm still a little unsure of how he made that happen.  so in other words, ALL the passengers knew that obviously, there was something "wrong" with me. 

Anyhoo, so we set up my chair and get situated and i'm sitting trying to get cool and this chick comes up to me an introduces herself and the conversation goes like this:

blah blah blah
Chick, "So...did you have back surgery?  what's wrong?"
Me, my standard answer, "no (remember my little history)...I have Mulitple Sclerosis" (I always say the whole thing because i'm not sure how many people actually know what MS is)
chick (really enthusiastically): "Wonderful!!!"  
Me (in my head): eh?  really?? u not serious are u???  out loud: (not a damn thing - good thing too)  I think i was a little taken aback

she then went on to talk about how it was great that i was out and enjoying the boatride and "taking a wine" as only i can and it was refreshing to see that i wasn't letting it keep me back.  oh, okay...thanks :-)  but i just couldn't believe it when the 1st word out of her mouth after being told that i have MS was, "WONDERFUL".  LOL - i had to give her a bligh after she continued.

by Laura at Inside MyStory

Did anyone else catch the recent chat on Fox News about Ann Romney, and her Multiple Sclerosis? Normally I would not watch Fox News, but we were staying with friends on a trip and they had their television tuned to Sunday House Call.

Of course I paused to listen to this story because of the topic, and they included a brief part of an interview they had done earlier in June with Ann Romney. I know she has come under much criticism recently about her portrayal of MS, the resources available to her, and all the other baggage that comes with being a high profile public personality. I have nothing to say about her personally, because that is a lesson I learned very quickly with MS – we are all so different but yet the same in living with this disease. I hope her MS stays in remission forever, just like I wish well for every one out there who lives with this MonSter, and this blog is not about her.

What I do want to talk about is this glaring example of how little some medical experts know about MS and the way it is portrayed in the media. Up first for this report was Dr. Marc Siegel, an internal medicine doctor and associate professor at New York University (NYU) Medical School. He was also the person who did a lengthy sit-down interview with her in mid-June about her MS.

In his brief few minutes of air time, there were several points he made that had me screaming “no!!!!!.” He talked about the disease modifying therapies available and said they all have serious risks including Lemtrada, which causes problems with platelets and that another MS drug causes encephalitis. For the record, Lemtrada is not available to us even though the idea of a few IV treatments and then skipping it for a year is appealing; Lemtrada has only recently been delivered to the U.S. Federal Drug Administration and it’s European counterpoint for approval.

Encephalitis from an MS drug? I am guessing Dr. Siegel was referring to progressive multifocal leukoencephalitis that is a rare but documented problem with Tysabri. He threw the phrase out there in association with treatment that makes it sound like a regular problem, and I wish if he was going to throw these possible complications with treatment out there, he would take a moment to discuss the risk /benefit decision we all face.

It wasn’t enough that he was misleading and spreading fear about the drugs. He then went on to talk about Ann Romney’s use of horseback riding for her therapy and talked about the value of the LOVE between a horse and its rider. He said nothing about the therapeutic value of RIDING a horse. Hippotherapy is an approved therapy for many different disorders; for people with MS, the movement of riding a horse mimics the human walking motions and improves core stability. The body responds to riding a horse with improved balance, stronger core muscles and can even reduce spasticity. Just like petting a dog will lower blood pressure, there probably is a benefit to bonding with a horse, but the therapeutic value for people with MS is much more than love.

The female anchor of the program did interject that “horses are magical” and maybe that’s my problem- if I just believed more in magic and got a pony, my MS would disappear.

More than once, Dr. Siegel mentioned how Ann Romney has beat MS. Wow, that’s an impressive statement because the last I checked, no one has beat MS- we merely learn to live with it. He also credited her faith and being strong as the key to her beating MS. I can’t help but wonder how that makes the many people with MS who I know who haven’t beat MS, despite being strong and faithful.

Perhaps the most confounding statement Dr. Siegel made was that often the best decision to make for patients is to not treat their MS, and that it is often better to wait because of the side effects of the MS drugs. A louder scream comes from me on this one…… argh!!! The most recent recommendations of the MS Consortium of Research Centers (MSCRC) and the FDA approved guidelines for these drugs, is to treat people with MS immediately with their first symptoms – clinically isolated syndrome (CIS) is recognized as the first sign that a person may later develop MS. The earlier the treatment is begun, the better the odds that the disease progression can be slowed. If a person is beyond CIS and has MS, it would be unthinkable to not offer that patient a treatment option.

The second doctor to speak about Ann Romney’s MS, was David Samadi, MD, also from New York, who is the “Chief of Robotics and Minimally Invasive Surgery at Mount Sinai School of Medicine,” according to the Fox website. I had hoped that this doctor would present solid information on MS, but at the time I did not know his credentials or I wouldn’t have held that hope. MS is far removed from the black and white world of robotic medicine.

Dr. Samadi stated that MS is diagnosed by the evidence of plaques showing on MRI’s and through the analysis of the cerebral spinal fluid (CSF) from a lumbar puncture. He completely ignores the documented fact that not all CSF will be positive and about 15% of people with MS have negative lumbar punctures. The same is true for the MRI imaging – it is very much possible to have MS and not have visible lesions. There are a number of factors that go into this, including low powered MRI’s, incorrect MRI software application, or radiologists misreading the MRI images. There is growing evidence that MS lesions/plaques are not confined to the brain’s white matter and may be lurking in the gray matter as well. High powered MRI imaging is being used to see if perhaps this is where MS hides in the early stages. He said nothing about the clinical neurological exam or the role the patient’s history plays in the diagnostic process.

He echoed Dr. Seigel’s view that Ann Romney is a strong woman and because of that and her faith, she has her MS in control and she should be a role model for the rest of us living with MS. Unfortunately few of us have her resources so it is somewhat difficult to shadow her coping style.

As a final note, he proclaimed that since she only has Relapsing Remitting MS, she just has the mild type of MS and she will do well. Can you hear me letting loose with a primal scream at the TV at this point? Obviously he doesn’t know the statistics of how many people with RRMS will move on to secondary progressive MS (SPMS) and accumulating disability.

If you want to practice your very own screams at the screen, you can view the Fox News discussion at
http://video.foxnews.com/v/1714450639001/ann-romneys-battle-with-multiple-sclerosis/?playlist_id=930909755001

This is not the first and probably not the last time, where the talking heads on TV will get it wrong explaining Multiple Sclerosis. Dr. Nancy Snyderman , the Today Show medical expert, usually makes me scream at the TV as well; most recently she told viewers that men having MS is rare. But what should we expect from a doctor trained in oncology or these other doctors who deal with robots and internal medicine rather than neurology? They may be wonderful in their own fields, but they need to not present themselves as experts on a topic that they haven’t mastered, and judging from the false statements they make, maybe they even skipped the neurology rotation in med school.

Would it be too much to ask the networks to invite a real expert to explain MS? At least neurologists understand that living with MS is more complex than having religious faith, just wishing it to go away, and loving a horse.

This concludes the 119th edition of the Carnival.  The next Carnival of MS Bloggers will be hosted here on August 2, 2012. Please remember to submit a post (via email) from your blog of which you are particularly proud, or which you simply want to share, by noon on Tuesday, July 31, 2012.

Thank you.

Thursday, September 15, 2011

Carnival of MS Bloggers #97

Welcome to the Carnival of MS Bloggers, a bi-weekly compendium of thoughts and experiences shared by those living with multiple sclerosis.

Sleeping Legs, MS Faces and Awareness, RX Yoga

by Karen of Meandering...One moment please

Photo courtesy of Hubbers

One of the best things about vacationing at the lake is kayaking and canoeing. I have always enjoyed both. This year was no exception! There is nothing quite like gliding along the water silently, taking in all that nature has to offer.

As my mobility is somewhat stilted on land now, it was exhilarating to travel quickly across the water so effortlessly. I once again felt in control of how my body moves. I felt totally able bodied, and free from the limitations that disease has imposed on me.

I zipped around the bay and paddled out on the big lake for about an hour. As I headed back to the cottage, I noticed that I no longer felt any pain in my lower back or legs. The transverse myelitis plagues me with a considerable amount of pain most days. Wow, kayaking and nature surely is the best medicine I thought!

As I beached the kayak on the rocky shore, the excitement of being pain free slowly turned to concern, when I realised that I couldn't feel the rocky ground through the underside of the boat. Not tending to be an alarmist, I continued to maneuver the kayak to a stable resting position so I could climb out.

If you've ever been in a kayak, you know that the only way out, is to pull yourself up, back, and out from the tiny opening. It usually works pretty good by using your legs to push against the front of the boat, as you lever yourself up with your arms. I kept trying to hoist myself from the confines of the small space where my legs rested. It wasn't working!

I couldn't get out of the boat! I couldn't get out because I couldn't move my legs at all, nor could I feel them! There was no one down at the dock, and the cottage is a considerable way up the hill, so calling out for help was useless, because I wouldn't be heard. It was about at this point that the panic set in.

There I was, stuck in a little pink kayak, numb from the waist down, with arms flailing, while making bizarre squawking noises. Thankfully the scene was eventually noticed by Hubbers, who was on the upper deck sorting out his fishing tackle. I think the squawking noise was what caught his attention.

He managed to haul me out of the little pink prison, and settled me on the sand, where I laid like a beached whale. Convinced that my legs had just "fallen asleep", I protested the urgent suggestions that we should take a trip to the nearest hospital, (which wasn't that near).

After a while laying flat on my back, searing pain started shooting from my toes up to my hips. Well, this was surely a good sign! Pain equals feeling, and feeling equals not paralyzed. I regained almost full feeling in both legs, (along with full pain) over the course of the next few hours.

The doc said that the angle of my legs in the kayak, put pressure on the spinal cord, smack dab in the area of the cord that has already been damaged by the TM. That pressure in turn compressed the cord further and caused the temporary paralysis.

There you have it... I knew my legs just "fell asleep"!

To be on the safe side, I have scratched kayaking off the list of fun things to do up at the cottage!


by Laura of Inside MyStory

Do you grow weary of hearing the inspirational tales of people who have MS but still conquer the world?  Do you have trouble identifying with the athlete who just ran, swam or biked across the world in the face of MS or the person who climbs into the ring with a raging bull and emerges with the championship belt? The list of motivational speakers includes a wide variety of talents and skills and they mean well, but it can be difficult, if not impossible to relate to their message.

It’s a mystery why this disease affects all of us differently and I don’t begrudge those people who appear to have benign Multiple Sclerosis – that mild disease that may not even need to be treated. Kudos to them being able to continue living life to its fullest, setting lofty goals and working hard to achieve them and I certainly don’t want to take away from their successes, but I have trouble relating to these super-patients.   Their normal of living with Multiple Sclerosis doesn’t compare to the normal of the numerous people I know who have this same disease.

The best human interest stories and inspirational tales for me don’t come from the globe-trotting, super achieving people with MS.  The real people living day in and day out with the struggles make the most inspirational witnesses to the human condition of living with Multiple Sclerosis.

Let me hear the experiences of the primary progressive MS patient who regularly lobbies on Capitol Hill in Washington, DC, to keep awareness of our needs in the limelight for legislators.  Now this is someone I should wish to emulate.

How about the single mom whose partner decided to leave rather than stay in the trenches with Multiple Sclerosis?  Recently I heard that 70% of people living with MS end up divorced; how do those people who are left alone, often with children to raise, manage?  These people only have themselves to rely on for their daily needs. There has to be a tale or two about their highs and lows that would inspire me to not give in to this monstrous disease and its unfortunate side effects.

Or maybe I can learn important lessons from the person forced onto disability from their dream profession, because MS doesn’t discriminate and strikes people from all walks of life.  What does it take to maneuver the maze of assistance programs when you lose all your assets and your identity to this disease?

There are as many stories as there are people living with MS; they may not all have happy endings, but there are lessons to be learned from all. Life with MS is not a happy fairy tale, but more like one of those tales from the Brothers Grimm, where life is often cruel. Give me the real life stories of emerging from the dark side of MS with new direction and a sense of purpose.


by Judy of Peace Be With You

We MS bloggers
comprise a small percentage
of those who are ill.

Are we a voice
for largely silent people
who need to be heard?

What is our role?
Just simple self expression?
Must we advocate?


by Diane J Standiford of A Stellarlife

As I have aged (like fine wine, uh-hem), my need to make people aware of multiple sclerosis has increased. Funny, but I expected the opposite. As my own knowledge and experience grew, MS became a bigger unknown to my worlds.

There was my work world. I was only in my thirties and full of energy! I started a disability group for employees (not ONE member had MS). I explained about MS while riding my scooter to city council meetings, to jury duty, on buses, in Starbuck's across Seattle! Then I moved to an enclosed community in gay-Seattle and began my awareness quest there. My struggle to get around with my cane was epic, and it led to many discussions about MS. I fought to make the public restrooms of my mixed retail apartment building accessible, I wrote letters to the theater chain asking for isle rails, I met with city sidewalk engineers to fix broken ramps and install new ones where needed. MS, MS, MS

By my fifties I moved to a retirement community, average age 85, and my energy for all this awareness making has run flat. Not a day goes by when eyes do not look at me in my power chair and wonder, "WHY is SHE here? In THAT?" I have considered a hand-out, the book with one of my short stories about MS located in the library here apparently is not sufficient. (Though the first one I donated was stolen, causing a bit of a brouhaha, so some residents actually wanted to read it...)

Shocking to me how many of this age group are so unfamiliar with MS. Keeps me wondering who is doing any MS Awareness for us? A once a year walk just isn't enough, and what does that do? It shows people laughing, walking, maybe a power chair here and there. But mostly a party atmosphere---how are people learning about MS from these events? (Sponsored quite often my at least one drug company.) I remember the one I went to. Finding transportation there was a joke, and the volunteers tossed me a T-shirt, "You can put this on over your shirt."

When I said I couldn't lift my arms up, they looked at me like I was an alien. Good grief. I ended up leaving after they couldn't find a place for me to sit and were having so much fun laughing among themselves about a movie they had seen...well, I just zoomed as fast as I could in hopes of catching the ne'er-do-well Access Van service before it left.

So, it seems I will be spending the rest of my life supplying MS Awareness. Fifty years ago, I am sure some other woman with MS spent her life doing the same thing. Though, when I was five years old I was hearing about MS from TV ads, magazine ads, radio, "MS. The crippling disease of young adults." A few more of those ads would make my task a lot easier.


from Melissa's Madness


That was my Facebook status yesterday. Was I really jumping around the office with my neurologist with fists in the air? Uh...no. Actually the very thought of it almost makes me drop to the floor hysterically laughing. All kidding aside, my routine appointment went well. I am set up for an EEG and MRI. He did say that my strength is good, but after watching me walk, that my balance is a little shaky (which now that I think about it, I did notice). I asked him if he could recommend anything specific to help with that. He said going for walks (duh) and doing yoga-esque balance exercises. Here's the thing. Years ago I attempted yoga at home and didn't like it. Now, like I said, this was years ago. Pre-Alison...Pre-MS diagnosis. I think at that time I maybe got bored with it, but to be honest with you, I only did it for a week at most. With my mind-set nowadays, my doctor is recommending it, so I'll absolutely give it another shot. At this point, I'm just glad I didn't get another prescription written out for me. I stopped at Target yesterday (shocker) and purchased Jillian Michaels: Yoga Meltdown, so we'll give it a go. He also wants me to continue the strength training I have already been doing.

OK...yoga time. Fingers crossed this goes well.

UPDATE 11:50 AM: WOW!!! That was so much different then I remembered!!! I really liked it! Alison just told me that I'm "sweaty and gross" so it must have been a good workout. ;)


This concludes the 97th edition of the Carnival.

The next Carnival of MS Bloggers will be hosted here on September 29, 2011. Please remember to submit a post (via email) from your blog of which you are particularly proud, or which you simply want to share, by noon on Tuesday, September 27, 2011.

Thank you.